The 30 Day Challenge

October 31st, 2012 was the first Halloween where I didn’t decorate my home, crave a pumpkin, or even pass out candy.  It’s not the first time this year where I didn’t do what I’ve loved to do my entire life.  What I did was go to a Finance Education Workshop and had the pleasure to listen to a great speaker named Katie O’Brien.  Now there wasn’t any one thing that was discussed in the workshop that I would say inspired me, but what I did get was a great vibe to renew my spirit.

My Spirit?  I’ve lost mine somewhere along the way.  And as I was listening to the speaker I kept thinking about my attitude and how negative I’ve been or have become.  I truly believe that what you think is what you draw into your life.  Negative breeds Negative and Positive breeds Positive.

Now I won’t get into the nitty gritty of my life but I do know that it’s a journey and for me I’ve taken the backseat in my own life.  Because of that, my spirit has been snuffed out a bit, the light has been dimmed, and I started to think about this and how stuck I’ve felt in my life.  For me it’s not as easy as shifting gears and moving in a new direction.  It’s harder because I’ve made a choice that is having the effect on someone else, but in my heart I know it’s the right thing to do.  Still doesn’t make it any easier.  I’m battling myself, them, and having to deal with choice and also the added guilt of my own thoughts and of those that I’m hurting.

With that said, I’ve had to figure out a way to keep myself motivated and to continue to find some positive outlets… and I haven’t, I’ve been dwelling.  So I decided one small step was all I needed.  Didn’t matter what, but I needed to do this like my life depended on it.

So, my goal for November is to do a 30 day Gratitude Challenge.  Life is a journey and you learn by the peaks and valleys in your life.  Some people call them highs and lows, but I like the peak/valley sound of it as I think life is like that.  You sometimes feel like you are on top of the world and then something happens and you fall back down.  So how can I keep some even momentum going – for me it was with gratitude.  I needed to remind myself every day that there was something to be grateful for and write about it.   So today I start my challenge.  I challenge you to start something yourself and take the journey with me.

November 1st, 2012 – Today I am grateful that I’ve found a spark of hope and to move out of the dark and into the light.